…based loosely on ‘Lullaby’ by Professor Green:
Being a Man
It’s been a while since I last dreamt
Finding it hard to get to sleep, too stressed
Pretending this crap don’t get to me
I suffer in silence when I’m hurt
A man’s problems are his own
mental health issues leave you out on your own.
Too proud, or scared to talk, all pent up inside.
And it’s my burden
But I find it hard to switch off, my mind’s in overdrive
Going through all the scenarios at full speed
Off the rails, my train of thought is in need
Sick of pretending to be so happy
My anxiety’s inside’s killing me
I look up to the sky
It comes down crashing,
the walls close in and the ground swallows me up
As if all the good in my life in a flash disappears
In an instant, that thing is just so distant
I see the ones who I love, the ones who love me
But how can I tell them, in case they judge me?
It’s just meee, wish I could let somebody in
But I have never been too trusting
Sick of all these nightmares
I hide everything that’s going on inside
Guess it’s been a while since I’ve been honest,
I need help, but I deny it and even lie, to myself
I just wish someone would tell me it would be great
I just want to see a glimmer of hope, in this darkness , okay!
It’s hard, depression is a slippery slope
I don’t wanna do what many have done , with a rope,
Damn gotta get out of the trap I set in my mind.
All this negative self talk , all these eyes watching me
If I only I could escape into reality, but years and years of
Being stuck in this black hole, its going to take some time so make a note.
I just need a friend to love and take care of me, keep me going and be there for me, to listen understand and try to connect the dots, if they can.
As life never works the way you plan especially When you’re trying to be a man.